Meet your teacher day was a big hit last week, Ava was timid but curious and
actually didn't want to leave. I was happy about that. The picture is her first "homework" assignment completed. A picture of herself (and daddy). She is to bring this on her first day. It kind of makes us laugh.
This morning I woke up to this notice from my IPad
(and no, class didn't start at 12:20AM) and my heart skipped a beat. I am timid now, but make a big deal about her first day and she says "NO" when asked about being excited. Now I'm worried.
Despite the "No's", she wants to get dressed for school right away. She picks out her own outfit. Whew! Some of you have seen the get-ups she sometimes wears. 12:20 comes up fast and she was eager to get her back pack on and head out the door. My eyes are misting and she talks the entire time.
That's Buzz Lightyear of course. I am starting to think he has given her the courage. She seems so at ease about going to school. My eyes...still misty.

"COME On Mom!." I am clearly going too slow as I take pictures and wipe my eyes. I pull it together, walk her to class, stay for 20 minutes and worriedly say good bye. This is Ava. She never wants to be left in a strange place. SHE DOESN'T BLINK AN EYE and I have to ask for a hug bye. I leave feeling happy. She made me so proud and wasn't scared. The sadness sets in as I am walking down the hall. I am leaving her behind in a strange place after three year's with people I barely know. (can you see where she gets her worried side from-ha). I walk to the car, call Dejan in tears. He is a much bigger person than me. He says it's OK. She will do great. She has to go to school. Hang in there honey. We hang up and THEN I turn on the radio. WHY!?!? They are playing that stupid song from Titanic and I just lose it. Don't worry I am totally laughing at myself, so you can too. I turn that crap off, go home, and find this in her room...

Her favorite blanket, that goes everywhere, is just laying there on the floor. So you know, I cry again. I blog, exercise, clean a few windows, and am ready to go pick her up. I know it will get easier, but today was sad and I can't wait to see her cute face and give her a big hug.