Winter is dragging along and this week brings along colds in our house. BLAH, boring, gross piles of snotty tissues, too much indoor time, too much time allocated to browsing for new clothes online (which I don't need), and too much time to think about life. One of my biggest adjustments as a Mom has been my need to be involved with the world...which as you can see only revolves around my family right now. Don't get me wrong I LOVE my family, but I am restless and am always drawn to do more. What is that? I have no idea, but something is always pulling me.
I have known my husband for 15 years now and have been lucky in love. He has always worked way harder than me on his career, which has allowed me to keep looking for my ultimate job, which by the way, in case you didn't know, really doesn't exist. I thought being a stay at home Mom was just what I wanted. I do LOVE it most days but there is still that something pulling at my heart.
My parent's taught me well; work hard to get what you want, take pride in your work, tighten up those stomach muscles and take a deep breath to get through the hard times, and NEVER settle for anything less than you are capable of. To the point...it's ingrained in me to want to do more than stay home and tend to my household. My sister is off in Africa adopting our new addition to the family. Now that's doing more! What can I do to make a difference in the world, no matter how small or how large? Thanks to my Mom and Dad for making me such a restless soul (and I mean this in a good way)!
OH MAN, winter has gotten to me again hasn't it!
Well, I'll take that deep breath, tighten up those muscles and realize I will find more of what I want through my daughter's eyes. She will help me do more and she will encourage me to be a bigger and better person at whatever lies ahead.
2 comments:
I understand where you are coming from! I feel the need to contribute to society as a whole. But then my loving husband reminds me that I am staying home and raising our son! It's hard sometimes knowing everyone else goes to work at 8am and comes home at 5pm... meanwhile we are stuck at home wiping noses and playing with our kids! I guess it's not so bad after all!!
Oy vey sister! I know that pull oh so well.... and in the end your best decision will be the one that works for your entire family. Me: part time, so so job, great benefits, independence. My driving force is wantiing to be sure I never regret not doing something that tugs at me. You can always change the course if it does not work out. And know you are supported 100% in all you do!
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