Sometimes Mom's have really bad days, and today was that day for me. I feel bad for yelling at Ava twice, but some days I am so sick of a two year old ruling my every move. At least 1/2 an hour to get out of the house on any given day, battles over socks (which is really dumb now that I think about it), a few minutes to make myself presentable to the world results in an hour of cleanup later (she gets into everything), getting into the car is another battle (she never wants to get into the car the same way twice), toys, clothes, dishes, piles of paper & furniture seem to be strung out all over the place, stray cats, my own cat not using the litter box, my house a mess ALL the time, regular showers are iffy, workouts fit in as energy allows, battles over how much to allow her to do and how much to pull the chain on, my husband's silence after calling him and asking him to ask me how my day is going, ugh!
I can't even believe I am complaining about my sweet girl. She really is so good 99% of the time. My patience have just given up today.
I'm just missing myself right now and know I will make a come back some day. I had a nice couple hours out with some girls last night...maybe that's why I'm so grumpy today, I miss doing that. I miss being a women and not a mom.
I love you Ava with all my heart and can't imagine my life without you. Today was bad and tomorrow I will be a better Mommy. Tonight I will make you happy (and hopefully make myself feel better for yelling) and take you to the parade to see your favorite thing...a marching band.
2 comments:
Sorry sweet sister! Days like that are unavoidable. I threw a banana across the kitchen during one of my onw bad days a few weeks ago which sent the children scurrying. But PLEASE don't ever feel bad about needing to be your own person. Moms we certainly are, but you can't be a good mom if you aren't true to yourself.
And you are a pretty awesome mom - I am so proud of you.
You rock... and don't worry about the mess in the house.. really? You are doing the most important thing in the world- raising your child! Sometimes moms just need a little 'me' time.. we all want that.. weather we get that or not is another matter! LOL Let me know if you want to do a kid swap one morning so you can just be you and I'll take your child for a little bit! It'd be fun... it's been a long time since Christopher's had a girl to come over and play!
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