Emotions...

Yesterday started at 5 am & continued to be busy until 9pm. It was a long day for me & I'm certain it made me an emotional wreck around 4:30 when I had to leave Ava, for the first time ever, with someone other than family or her extended family in preschool. Mind you, it was at school, with people I am just now getting to know, so it was not that bad, but boy was I nervous. Ava was a bit nervous, too, but said she could do it for a little bit. :) I knew Dejan would be picking her up after work, & I ran into one of her teachers in the hall & asked if she could check on her... What the heck was my problem, she was fine!!!???

I wouldn't settle down until I sent a frantic text message asking Dejan if he had her yet!! He sent me the photo below & I had to try keeping it together, at a Legacy Foundation meeting, because I almost started crying when I saw her sweet little face eating a blizzard at the DQ!

I never anticipated, on week two of my job, the emotion I would feel about the time spent away from home.. That has been my life for five years, it's what I did. Only now, I spend just enough time away from that life to miss it. Who knew! I was so ready to work.  I still love my decision to work & the After School program has been a success; I guess now, it allows me to step away from mommy hood and appreciate things I had stopped appreciating as a stay at home mom.

One thing I learned about myself yesterday, I can really keep the tears back when needed...I'm usually crying all the time freely. I'm Italian, it's part of what we do. :)

Ava did great yesterday. She only got a little emotional once when I came to say bye, & that's because a LARGE bumblebee had gotten into the room. Problem solved before I left, & her daddy treated her to ice cream afterwards, so all was right with the world again. I'm once again proud of her & love how quickly Dejan got there to pick her up. :)